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I Had a Christmas Miracle!

1/1/2019

This is the second in 3 emails I sent and I know that you would get a lot out of this!

I have had a Christmas miracle!

Really.
I am serious.
What happened to me, is the perfect example of what I am trying to teach you.

I knew right away that I couldn’t send the other email I planned today because, as I said in my last email, I was going to be completely transparent with you and talk to you about miracles and being a miracle maker in your life.

I knew I had to share this incredible miracle with you.

As miracles happen in our lives,
THEY NEVER COME AS YOU SUSPECT. So, that being the case, I don’t have time to make a video for you today. I’m sorry, but you will have to actually read this one!

As I’ve said before if you would like to take the time to read this email,
I'd love you to. I know in my heart that my Christmas miracle story will help open your mind, give you inspiration and it also motivate you about how
miracles truly happen in our lives.

I’m making you aware that this is the longest email I have ever sent. If you don’t have the time, or it doesn’t interest you, I totally understand.

But if the work calls to your heart and you are interested in what it really means to be a miracle maker in your life, please read on, but make sure you read to the end…

Here’s the deal, I know that if you are anything like me, you have had a life
filled with tough struggles and also incredible highs.

To truly understand my Christmas miracle, I have to give you some intimate
background details about my journey in 2017 into ‘18 in particular.

Let’s start here; This year I got a new tattoo on my hand which turned out to be prophetic. It was one word:
TRUST....

I got that one word for many reasons, but mainly because over many years,
I have come to the conclusion for my own spiritual path and that of my
students that TRUST is the most important aspect of truly healing our
ego perceptions and transcending the egoic mind. You can think of trust
and do as; faith, belief, allowing and surrender. When we can master
TRUST, during the times when it’s easy and especially when it is the
hardest, is when we become true miracle makers and experience miracles
beyond what we could ever imagine...

Little did I know how much I would need to be reminded to TRUST this year...

2018 was an incredible year for me. I spent 3 weeks in my favorite country
in the world, France. And particularly to my favorite village of
Grignan, one of the most magical places in the world in my opinion. I
know, for me that spending time in the places that fill your soul is so
important for my peace so I always prioritize getting to them. I TRUST
myself enough to know that this is important in my life and remaining in
joy.

This year, I also invested in my own business education at a level that I hadn’t in a very long time. I learned more about business and how best to serve the right people who need my work. I learned how to truly TRUST myself in business, and it was scary! But, this TRUST became a huge shift in my business and how I served my students.

I have never talked about this publicly before but, I ended up creating my Immersion program, which is an invitation only intensive compilation of all my years of work with students combined into a 10 week transformational experience. It is not for everyone, but it is exactly right for the right student.

Creating this alone was huge. It took digging deep, working hard and sacrificing a lot to create it. I poured my heart into this. Don’t get me wrong. I loved it. But, when you create something that extensive, it is taxing
energetically. I took a huge leap of faith or TRUST to create this and
know that it would do for my students what I believed it could.

That TRUST paid off. From that program I have been honored to attract and work with many beautiful people and help them to have a true spiritual transformation and create true miracles in their lives.

To work at such a deep transformational level takes a huge commitment on
the part of myself and every student involved. For the people that are
ready to do the work, this isn’t always a walk in the park if you know
what I mean. It is challenging and scary at times, but it is also extremely rewarding. This program has brought me more joy and satisfaction on a wholistic level than I’ve ever had in my career as a teacher.As I lead these students through this experience, I realized more and more that what I was doing, was helping and guiding them to TRUST...

Also, if if you didn’t know I have been my father‘s full-time caregiver for
the last 5 years. I am honored and pleased to do that for him because I
love him so much. But, 2018 was particularly challenging for him
physically. I won’t go into it but, he is in incredible pain 24 hours a
day. And this last year he ended up developing an extreme arthritic
condition in his hands that has been been debilitating to him. That
means that doing anything with his hands is so painful that he can just
do the bare minimum.
It is emotionally, spiritually and physically painful and draining to watch your loved one go through so much on a day to day basis. This has added so much to my workload by taking care of him, constant doctors appointments, keeping up the house, cooking and everything else. That, along with running my business, honestly had been exhausting.

Through all this, my faith or TRUST that there was a reason for his pain that I did not understand and that I can even continue to do this... has been tested, to say the least.
I was again was being asked to TRUST.

Then, last summer I participated in a three month intensive spiritual retreat with my teacher Adyashanti. Every teacher needs a teacher, and he has been the most influential on my spiritual development over the last 10 years. I can truly say that his was a paradigm shifting experience.

This retreat asked me to delve deeper into my psychology and my spiritual
being than I have been challenged to in a very long time. And as you may
know, when you dedicate yourself to discovering the truth and doing this
kind of work, it brings up a lot of your “stuff“. Stuff that is frightening to look at. Stuff that you have based who you are in this world on. Stuff that is downright terrifying.
No matter how long you have been doing this work, (for me over 35 years) there is always room to grow deeper into the vastness of spirit.

Through this process I uncovered deep unconscious parts of myself that I was asked to face and attempt to transcend. Once again it was scary in a way that only the real work can be scary;
It asked me how much I could...
REALLY TRUST my teacher.
REALLY TRUST that I didn't know.
REALLY TRUST the process.

This process started an internal shifting of my essential being. A paradigm shift which has altered my perceptions and my relationship to EVERYTHING.

To Myself.
To Others.
To the World.
To God.
To Love.
And, to TRUST TRUST itself...

Think about that for a moment: TRUST TRUST ITSELF.

Back to my story...
ALL of this being said, on the financial front, 2018 was my MOST profitable
year in business. With that abundance and flow I was able to take
care of things that I had needed to financially for a while. That was a
big relief!

And 2018 was also ended up being my LEAST profitable year.

This is because of the surge of income at the start of the year and then taking care of past financial obligations and then....
a massive drop in income.
A drop that I completely see now as another way of asking me:
HOW MUCH DO I TRUST?

Let me tell you if there is one thing that asks us our level of TRUST, it is when it comes to survival.
Did I TRUST that I would be taken care of with such a low income?
Did I TRUST myself enough that as I always say "Everything always works out perfectly."?
Did I TRUST that I could have a MIRACLE?
These are the times when, as they say the rubber meets the road, baby! These are the times when God, Universe, Source is offering us the opportunity for

More Joy
More Peace
More Love
More Miracles

IF we can just TRUST A LITTLE more...
and I did.

Here is where I am going to go out on a limb and say something that all the "Experts" say, you should never let your students know:

“You are not where you are teaching/coaching your students to be. So, never let them know the truth, because they will never TRUST you...”

I have played that game before and I will never do that again.
Screw that.
The fact is that I TRUST you. I TRUST that telling you the TRUTH and being as honest as possible will hopefully show you that you can learn through watching me.

Here it goes:
In the months leading up to this Christmas...
I WAS FINANCIALLY DESTITUTE.

I had no idea how I was going to make ends meet.
I had no idea how I was going to pay my bills.
I had no idea how I was going to keep my business...
I had no idea how I was going to afford anything on my upcoming trip back home to NYC when my sister and niece would be joining me for a holiday.

BUT... through the fear and the myriad of other intense emotions I had one thing to hang on to even though it was brutal. The conflagration of all that I had been through internally and externally left my in a true “dark night of the soul. “ Which I had only ever experienced once in my life.
I doubted myself.
I doubted everything.
I continued looking down at my hand with the tattoo and it kept telling me to...TRUST.
Fast forward to just before leaving for NYC a few days ago. I literally had my ticket and about $200 in my account. And if you know NYC that will get you about as far as the front door!
Still the tattoo on my hand and forces beyond my own understanding kept telling me to.... you know.
I arrived at my apartment in NYC on Christmas Day and had no idea what would happen. I hadn’t even walked in my door and I’d already worked through a big chunk of the $200.
TRUST.
As usual, my friend who picks up my mail has organized a huge pile of mostly junk for me to go through. I began to sort through everything with the trash can next to me because I knew 90% would end up there anyway.

Then it happened...

There was an envelope for the New York District Attorney... with the name of my old slum landlord on it, who was put in jail last year for fraud and MANY other things.

Then...I remembered months back a fellow tenant told me there was going to be a class action suit against him and only the people who sent in the correct paperwork would be able to be involved. I had 2 days to do it. I was leaving to go back to California the next day, but you better believe I did it and sent it in to...The New York District Attorney. Then as quick as I did it, I forgot all about it.
Until now... could it be...???

I quickly opened it up.

And there it was:
MY CHRISTMAS MIRACLE!

They had sued this man for over 3 million dollars and it was now divided between the tenants who filled out the paperwork.

REMEMBER how I said miracles never come as you expect them....?

I always say:
“The feeling of relief is the vibration of God” and the sense of relief I felt in that moment of seeing that check literally drove me to my knees with tears streaming down my face in my living room.

The check was truly a Christmas Miracle on the exact day that Christ was born to remind humankind to

TRUST

The check was not only a miracle because it has relieved many financial worries, but because it has affirmed to to me that if we hold on to TRUST long enough, it WILL all work out perfectly. Something I KNEW but did I KNOW...?

I’m sharing all this with you because I believe that whatever area of being destitute in your life like I was, if you keep falling back on TRUST when it is the hardest, you will discover that the Universe definitely has your back. But you will never know that until you develop...

Thank you so much for taking the time for yourself to read this. My hope is that if you have read this far, that my story has inspired you in some way and that reading this at this exact time in your life will somehow shed light for you to be a real miracle maker in your own life.

If this story has touched you, I would love to hear from you. Just reply to this email with your thoughts and any insights you have.

On Monday I will be sending you an email with a last email in this series where I will introduce to you The Miracles Box.